Lately I’ve been trying to think of
ways to stay positive. Realistically I
know I have a great life. I have a
wonderful family, great friends, and a decent job. The struggle comes when I compare myself and
what I have, to what others have. There
are things I feel I’m missing in life. Some
natural stepping stones in one’s life most experience that I have not,
yet. The two obvious (and the ones that
affect my heart and happiness the most) are a marriage/husband and a kid of my
own. In all fairness I’ve known since I
was eight that I could never carry a child.
As a teenager and into my twenties I never got too attached to the idea. It’s only recently I’ve become aware of the miracle
I’m missing. When I feel this way I’m fortunate
to be able to look at my nieces and nephews.
They show me the same unconditional love one of my own children would
show me. There isn’t anything I wouldn’t
do to protect them from harm. I believe
they are aware of that fact, which has created a bond. The bond is different than with your own
child (I assume), but just as strong in its own right.
The not being married is harder to
reconcile. I’m a good person who has a
lot to offer, but my dealings with men have shown me I’m pretty easy to walk
away from. Of course there are many
women out there who are prettier, smarter, and kinder than me. My mind settles on the old cliché, “I just
haven’t met the right one.”
In the grand scheme of life I just
have to be happy with what I do have.
Every day I have love, food, shelter, and clothing. I don’t have to worry about where any of
these things are coming from and I’d say that’s a blessing. Everyone’s journey in life is unique. You can choose to let your attitude be a road
block on the road to happiness.
